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Today after a long hike and 4 hours worth of homework we smoked and told each other stories of our childhoods. I told them about how I’ve only ever been to the circus once in 1999. I was nine and terrified that the millennium was going to kill us all. Scared shitless; panic attacks and all- it was bad. My grandpa would tell me not to worry, that when he was a boy they used to say the world was heading to its end and the only thing that troubled him about it was that he wasn’t going to be able to marry and have children. My mom would take me to sobadores and curanderos to relief some of my stress, people prayed. 
I don’t know if it was as a way to hopefully distract me from this fright of apocalypse or just a family outing but when the circus came to town we attended a show one Sunday after church.  Even as the clowns rode around in tiny cars and the elephants did fancy two footed tricks, I remember thinking that it could happen any minute. 
The year eventually, as was to happen rolled by and before I knew it my apocalyptic fears went the way riding my bike with training wheels, and tying string to loose teeth- old memories that will one day once again flash before my eyes. 
Fading, fading.